Friday, September 12, 2008
As I was in Starbucks making my daily run, I realized that I'm not that social. I go in straight faced half awake, order the same thing and leave out like a zombie. I speak and am courteous to the workers, but I don't go out of my way to say "Good morning, how are you?" I'm just too serious! Is this what adulthood is all about, being so serious that you can't even let the inner kid out once and awhile? I'm reminded of Pastor Joel Osteen who has such a kind spirit and is ALWAYS smiling. What happened to me? As I reflect on what made me this way, I think back to my childhood. I used to be so silly and goofy, laughing and having the time of my life. All my yearbooks reflect this from classmates who labeled me as goofy. The word 'goofy' became sort of a stigma, something bad, something I didn't want to be called. So as I got older, I think subconsciously I internalized that and became more and more serious, more uptight and anal. I've walked around years like this. I'll speak to people at work walking down the hallways only if they're about to speak. What about speaking first? I won't go out of my way to create friendships or conversations with people. Today I made up my mind, I'm going to smile more. Smiling is contagious afterall. I'm going to go out to lunch with co-workers, which I never do. I'm going to introduce myself to people I don't know. And if by chance, someone doesn't look like they want to speak I'm going to command their attention and if they still don't speak, I'm not going to take it personal. I'm going to laugh more and be happy and enjoy the simple things in life.
When you are rebuilding your credit, patience is definitely a virtue! I find myself eager to check the mail to see if I have a letter from the credit bureaus or my creditors. I anticipate like a kid on Christmas eve waiting to open presents. I started the task of rebuilding my credit 5 months ago, which seems like eternity. I've been somewhat patient. I've gotten some things negative accounts removed and my credit score has improved. Until I achieve the desired results, I'll just keep typing my response letters and wait.